Friday is coming soon...

My Eye is infected again.. after 2 weeks of rest and 3 days of contacts.
wth?
Why so lousy one? The doctors said no contact lens for 2 weeks then can wear wat.. And it seems okay after like 10 days -.-
@(#*&%@(%&@(%@

Anyway.. I wonder if anyone is gonna buy be books?

Why Cannot have books? I would love one of those graphic design/illustration books by famous artist around da world! hehe..

I know what you are prolly thinking la.. ITE student like books meh? Read books meh?
Frankly speaking there ARE ITE students who reads. But not many.. Go up to any random student and ask 'do you read books?' They will reply 'I HATE BOOKS'
Can't blame them oso.. blame the teachers and parents for forcing them to study haha..
base of experience.. the more u force.. the more they hate it and don't want to do it.

Yesterday, Joel tried to add me as a friend on friendster....... After Terence told him that I'm not interested in being friends last week.
Seriously I dunno why is he trying his luck. Doesn't he know that people have upgraded to facebook too?

And of course I rejected him. Even changed my friendster profile picture to a World of Warcraft screen shot of me and Terence. lol

Then today he sent me 3 friendster smiles and 4 messages. IN ONE DAY.

So it goes accordingly from the first.

A message from Joel Tan:
then really sorry for adding you

I don't know why i bother to come to school today.
Yesterday Mdm Fahimah informed us that afternoon lesson is cancelled. But we still have to come for Web design class in the morning.

And here I am.
The teacher is absent too -_-

I would have slept longer.
There is only 13 person in class.

Anyway since I was so free, I went to find one of the lecturers to discuss something.
My first word to her this morning was 'Aaa.. You pregnant ah?'
And I hit the bullseye.

Suddenly I got this 'I can tell if you are pregnant' infection. Must be from visiting Sherlyn yesterday. haha..
She's expecting sometime next week, all the best. And congrats Greg!

But unlike Sherlyn. I feel sad for my lecturer. Happy yet Sad.
She look so stressed, and she is still pursing her deg. :(
I congratulate her anyway, because its suppose to be a blessing right?
Yet I cant help but feel sad for her...

Maybe because as a women (I'm not going to say girl anymore)
we plan our future, want to do, things to achieve, what we want to do or be in life.
And a baby is just going to put everything on hold, and tie one down. Unless we already did what needs to be done and plan for it?
Somehow, this is the feeling she gave me when I met her today.

being a women in Singapore sucks anyway. Aint gonna explain why, Go figure

MOST PEMBROKE WELSH CORGI'S DOESNT HAVE A TAIL.

Last night, I visited my grandmother house.
The rest of the family were there too.

Little girls all in the room.. staring at the horribly slow windows 95 monitor in my uncle room.

My little cousins were all addicted to facebook. All Primary 3 and below only.
The only thing I dont understand is, how come they keep re creating accounts and re adding me.
So annoying okay. Now I dont even know which account is active?

OH and they have also gave themselves christian names. Shannon, Holly Mia, Harriet, Helena.. it keeps changing >_>
As some of you know, I'm against little girls using internet.
And the fact that 3 of these little girls parents don't know how to read English & use a computer just made it worst.
I can't help but worry.

Then, one of the girl, Yan Qin, started to collect email address then draw on the piece of paper while her sisters played the computer.
So i draw a Corgi on it.

and then she added a tail for the Corgi after I'm done.

I told her Corgis don't have tail.

She said 'No tail how to pull'

So I explained that dog's tail aren't meant to be pulled. And its really painful for the dog.
Nicholas got bitten by belle last time cause he pulled her tail (if i remember correctly) LOL

and that little bugger giggled and said
'Then how the dog pang sai'

-_-

I told her tails are not there for the dog to shit la.. duh?!
Where is learning all these from?

To make the conversation even more pointless.
She oso said
'Pull the tail then the dog pang sai ma.'
then she and her younger sister started laughing like I'm some dumb person who didnt know I have to pull a dog's tail so that it could poop.

You may have read about this China guy called Jeff An in the news paper recently.
The one who adopted a Great Dane from a animal rescue group for $350 and tried to sell it online for almost $2o00.

Well apparently this was not his first time doing this horrible stunt.
He adopted a bull terrier before the Great Dane, and the volunteers realise that he no longer had it anymore and it was brought to some factory in Tuas by his mum.

Volunteers from the group went to Tuas and learnt from workers at a neighbouring factory that the dog had allegedly been tied to a lamp post and left out in the rain overnight. Said Miss Ng: "The workers told us that the owner of another factory there took the dog in, but Xena ran away."

Full story can be read at http://www.asiaone.com/Digital/News/Story/A1Story20091020-174748.html

I guess people are looking for Xena now, perhaps there will be hope? poor dog..
I hope its not eaten or anything :(
I learnt from another volunteer, while volunteering for SPCA a few months back that she work near a factory and the people there actually catch and eat dogs. Yes Illegally here in Singapore.
I dunno to believe or not. I just hope its not true

Look at this poor shih tzu eyes. Its kept in a outdoor cage at KL. I can't do anything..
2 days back I look that that.
When i look into the mirror i thought of this dog. Because my right eye really look like that, it was very red with alot of discharge, and my eyelash kept getting suck in my eyeball everytime i blink. And it was abit swollen
I dunno how i got it, but i know my right eye had been infected since more than a month ago, but I never seek treatment because I have to either skip school or spend alot of money to see a doctor. -_-
It was on and off anyway, my contact lens would suddenly be clouded then move upwards and get suck on top of my eye ball.. So i decided to change lens (thinking it was the lens that caused it)
But apparently it wasnt the lens.
Every morning i woke up with a shit load of eye discharged. gross.. And it just keep coming throughout the day

So it got so bad on Wednesday Morning that I decided to consult a doc.. and i was stuck in a dilemma, to consult a private GP which is faster then head to school or Q up at a polyclinic that is cheaper?

At first i wanted to consult a GP because i dunwan to miss morning lesson.
But dad kept nagging about how much problem i have and how much money i waste -_-
which is pretty demoralizing because these things dont happen often. Just that he knows me through out my lifetime, he thinks i ALWAYS get sick..
He suggested i waited till Thursday or Friday then see a doctor because its half day then.

I wonder what would have happened to my eye if i didnt consult a doc due to his comments?
The doc said eyemo wont work, told me to throw away, and gave me antibiotic eye drops and this ophthalimic ointment.
The Ointment is damn hard to use lah.. they told me to pull down my lower lid and squeeze the gel into it.. and its not easy to get the gelly cream onto the eye without having it suck on ya fingers

And no contacts for 2 weeks. So I'm currently wearing my low deg spects that hurt my ears if i wear too long.
gggrrrrrrr...

Last Sunday I did a performance for dunno what cc at AMK.
I think its for deepavali. I didnt perform for like.. months so i was pretty rusty.. but I'm glad i didnt make much mistakes.. Oh ya this indian waiter drop a huge pot of curry while watching us dance lol..
I dance to Bollywood with Claire and then mustafa with Florra inside.
It ended pretty late at night.. abt 10? Then going home takes an hour, so i skipped first lesson on Monday.. its physical education class, aint gonna attend since i just did a paid physical activity the night before.
I also developed 3 films yesterday!
The above 2 are taken at KL with my fisheye 2 camera and a Vivitar which i borrowed from my classmate kai.
I also got my very very advance birthday present! A olympus XA2 camera! And the first roll of film that i used is the Lomography redscale! Not bad eh? Lol.. I'm still trying to get the hang of using that camera..
XA2 taken in class! =D

And also..

I want to share with you guys about something.
Remember the weird guy 'Joel' who kept bugging me to be friends and getting his good friend to send letters and messages to me? Then I block him in MSN because he was uber weird.
Well.. apparently the drama didnt end there.

You see, Joel is so shy, he need to get his good friend.. I don't know his name so I'm just gonna call him JBF (Joel's Best Friend)
Last Monday, This JBF saw me at the school's convenient store WITH my classmate KaPang. He started to follow me -_-
When me and KaPang sat at the canteen minding our own business and eating, that bugger kept walking pass us staring at me. wth does he want?? Joel was not with him.
It was so bloody obvious that my other classmates noticed it.
Finally before we left the canteen he walked pass me staring at me, I gave him the 'WHAT DO U WANT?' obvious look and he said in chinese 'nothing nothing not looking for u'
-_- fine.

This morning I took my usual long ride to school, and a few stops before school, JBF boarded the same bus. Sat at the next row infront of me. We were on a double deck bus. And his position was like right at the front. I was a row back.
well.. THAT bugger saw me, but i pretend not to see him and started sketching.
And you know what I saw?
He did the sign of the cross. (Or i think he did) cause it really seems like it -_-
and at first i thought i saw wrong. then he did it the 2nd time.. is this guy serious? He is actually trying to pray on the bus?
If u don't know what the sign of the cross is, It's actually a hand ritual thing that roman catholics do before AND after praying.

I told Joel before that I'm roman catholic, which he later claim that he is 'jehovah witnessess'
So I dunno if he told his friend JBF, and is JBF trying to impress me?
I'm not saying its wrong to pray on the bus lah. But seriously do u know anyone who prays after boarding the bus or maybe getting a seat? whats more, he made the sign of the cross but didn't clutch or put his palms together to signify that he is praying -.-
So i dunno if i misunderstood him.. but seriously he did the same hand motion twice. The same as we did in church or when we are praying!

Well.. THEN.. when I got off the bus. That bugger approach me.
He said 'Do u know I found out something?
me: what? -_-
JBD: 'You know my friend Joel right? He found out something?'
me: oh wow what did he find out? (NOT SURPRISED AT ALL)
JBD: 'He just found out that he liked you'
me: 'Isnt that obvious from the start? Yet he kept denying it. I already have a bf.'
JBD: 'No really! He just found out, you wait i show you the message'
*look through handphone'
me: 'I dont play games.'

*walk off listening to MP3*

And I thought that was the end of it.
But little did i realise that he doenst understand words like this. Oh wait.. those 2 never did. Joel thinks I'm playing mind games. And they both dun understand the simple straight forward
I have a boyfriend
Come on. Its so easy to understand.. If I say 'Im attached' and they dun understand that 'attached means boyfriend' I can still understand.

So later on at 3.15pm.
I was chatting with my Class advisor Mdm Fahimah about my achievements.
Suddenly she was distracted and looked towards the door and said 'Can i help you?'
My classroom is build in such a way that.. the computers and CPU are all on the table. So it kinda makes it hard to see the door when I'm sitting lah. So I never bother to see?
Then she continue to stare at the door and some classmates were distracted too, and nobody replied?
So i sit up a little and O M F G
JBF WAS AT MY CLASSROOM DOOR LOOKING AROUND.
I quickly sat down and kept saying 'OMG THATS THE STALKER!'
Then the teacher said 'They are having class now' but he didnt reply, continue to look for me then left.

WHY THE HELL.. DID HE COME INTO MY CLASS? We are NOT from the same course.
He got guts.
So fahimah suggested that if this guy is disturbing me, we can go see the discipline master.
I think thats a great idea, since this 2 idiots had stepped WAY over the line.

My class ends at 3.30pm today. so at 3.30pm Fahimah brought me to the admin office to look for the discipline master (I dunno what good he is anyway). But he was busy. So she told me to go back home and she will inform him.

I went to Terence place.
At 6pm. I received an sms from my classmate who stayed back in school to complete a video.
She told me that guy (JBF) came back 3 TIMES. and asked about me -_-
First time 'Where is raphaela'
Second time 'what time I went home'
Third time he gave his number on a note i think.

fking retard.
which part of I AM ATTACHED does he and his retard friend not understand? I already state I DUNWAN TO BE FRIENDS GO AWAY. I bet they think I'm playing mind games.
RETARDS I TELL YA.

I sms Fahimah anyway.
My classmate thought that JBF went home after leaving his number. But at 6.30 she sms me saying that guy came back again. this time he wanted the note with his number back. But apparently My teacher was there and shooed him away. LOL

You know what i dun understand?
His lesson ends early but He like to hang around in school to wait for me and do stupid things such as these.
And I hate it when he kept staring n following, just to wait for me to be alone so that he can approach me.
And WHY THE HELL does he always claim he is helping his friend JOEL? They look good together as gay buddies. What is he expecting? A threesome?

My classmate hafriz suspect that JBF oso like me thats why he didnt mind helping his friend Joel get me.
Argh sick.

Meow Meow @ Kino-I (KL)
Why do i look so fair zzz... anyway just focus on the cat and its 'stun' expression lol

Final term just started. My timetable now look so crappy and it doesnt really make sense.
My class advisor did a one on one chat with every students in class on our plans after ITE and what we should work on during this critical time.

Well in my case, I'm more into print and graphics. (not video)
So Ms Fahimah suggested that I work on my portfolio, add more illustrations, packaging, and do a big project.

All that by December. Because Temasek Poly open house is in Jan.

Then came the timetable. It's filled with

Digital Portfolio Project
Digital Video Effects
Web Design Electives
CAR (no idea wth is this)
Sports & Wellness *every Monday

Although I'm not into videos. I am still required to do a digital portfolio for GPA sake.

But how the hell am I suppose to find time to work on my portfolio?
I guess its OT at home and sleepless nights.

Good thing is.. since im freelancing now, those works can be included into my Portfolio.
Bad part is.. Clients usually take forever to decide and get it approved -_-

And I only put it up after they made payment.
I'm hoping to kill 2 birds with one stone with my current client.. But I think there wont be enough time..


And Also.. Just the first week of school, I felt that I did quite alot of work.
2days ago, I was told to go Bukit Batok ITE for a shoot. (S O F A R A W A Y)

Suppose to be a Host for this video along with my classmate Halim. It's a video for Adobe (something to do with supplying or sponsoring ITE with Adobe products)
I'm not sure myself LOL
I was damn tired that day lah.. It was a last min thing.. Morning teacher say go Afternoon drive me there liao -_-
Script oso go there then read and memorize.

Sometimes I wonder why i do that?
Can I even put it in my portfolio?
Or acting/hosting portfolio? I did a few videos this year already.. and spoke infront of the public.

Ris Low is somewhat right. Not everybody can speak well infront of Cameras & a crowd.
Takes alot of confidence... And I don't have that.

I'm also working on a presentation next week with my course manager..
something about myself as a top student and achievements. (I think)

shit. how come suddenly I'm doing things that I'm unsure of?

What to hear a real joke?

I forgot how to use the toilet flush ever since i got back from KL.
Not forgot to flush the toilet. But literally forgot how to use the flush function.

You see, in KL the kampong has no flush. And the hotel room in KL has a straight forward giant button as big as my hand tat acts as a flush. (i think its for the blind)

So now in Singapore, most of us are using the modern flush with 2 buttons.
Which stands for Big flush and small flush.

It helps safe water.

The problem now is.. ever since i was back, I forgot which is the big and which is the small.
Hence, I've been wondering and trying ever since I got back -_-
AND I STILL CANT REMEMBER.

Because over at Terence place his toilet flush is slightly different.
The buttons come in different size u see, one side is bigger then the other.

The big stands for big flush the small for small flush (I think)
But at Terence place, the big stands for small the small stands for big. ITS TONALLY THE OPPOSITE.

Thats why I've been confused.

I got so many things to say. I dunno where to start lol

How about we start with one of my epic Rtard face in KL last week?
Thats my teacher Ms Fahimah btw.. and the little rattan things u see on top of the guava is actually baskets or hats? I DUNNO LOL.. but each of us made one.. and mine look so... odd =/
During the 5 days trip, i spent 1 night at a kampong too. Where they taught us about their culture.
I was chosen to act as bride for the day, pamala on the right is my bridesmaid.
Khai was the groom and Donovan was his best man.
My groom was suppose to be someone else, but he was late -.-
They carried us on this carriage thingy? its freaky to be carried so high up man but i enjoyed it.. CHARGE!!
At the end of the day.. I was told that i made history. And gave the kampong people a culture shock. LOL
I DIDNT KNOW I WAS SUPPOSE TO SIT THERE AND NOT MOVE.
I even played the drums in my gown and fan myself (cause it was so hot)

oh wth... nobody told me anything ma =x

The rest of the pictures can be viewed on facebook.


Then Last Saturday (a day after i got back)
I attended Cornelius 21st birthday party with Terence. :)
Maurice Fredric and me..
Wendy, maurice, JiaXin (ben gf), Ben, Corn, Jane, Corn Gf (dunno her name), CK at the back, Ck gf, me and fredric.

Then the next day (Sunday)
I volunteered at World Animal day event @ the SPCA
The above image is taken by Liana, another volunteer. It sends 2 message.
The volunteer there look retarded and STOP ANIMAL ABUSE.

and then i appeared on Razor TV.
It was so sudden, Selina came to with a reporter and told them 'This is Stephanie she's a great volunteer' then told me that they are going to ask me some questions and went off.
So yeah.. I look so nervous and plastic on razor TV la.. the links can be viewed on my facebook profile too.
This was actually Nigel and CK job.
They were both tall guys, then after my interview with Razor TV, Selina said 'Stephanie do you want to try wearing the mascot?'
Like an excited dog, i started to wag my tail and nod my head.
LOL ACHIEVEMENT DONE.
too big and hot inside.
When i went outside, I hear comments like 'The cat got shorter!!' 'Thats a short cat!'
-_-
Then after like 15mins I took off the head and I see a girl pointing at me and shouted
'ITS A GIRL?!?!?!'

I just got back from KL yesterday evening.

And slept for like 12 hours.

Then 4 hours later i feel tired again.. I could or would have slept longer if Terence didn't call me at 2.30pm. But I woke up cause its abit retarded to sleep so long.

But later in the evening I wanted to nap but my mum wont allow me to. -_-
So i went for Cornelius 21st Birthday party at Costa Sands pasir ris.
Now I just finish editing my cousins wedding card (again)

and I'm off to sleep soon. Got voluntary work to do tml morning with SPCA at 9am. Suddenly I regretted doing so cause I didn't know I would be this tired. Could have slept longer.

Recently I've been going back to school..
This holiday does not feel like a holiday...again..

But at least I'm enjoying part of it :)
My First attempt at Oil Painting.
Finally doing something with the Art and Design club.

I felt that my skill in applying shadows and highlights to a painting had improved after months of digital painting for the NLB animation project.
How amazing. I feel happy lol
I used to suck at painting because I never learned how to paint before unlike most of my fortunate schoolmates whose parents let them paint at home & schools that taught them painting.
Ms Natalie taught us oil painting.
It was a last min thing, the day before I taught 6 year ones 'basic digital painting' using Adobe Photoshop & a Wacom tablet.
So the section head knew about this and wanted to arrange for light snacks. But then my course is only 2 hours long, and buying snacks is like a waste?
So Ms Nat decided to teach oil painting the next day. (It lasted 2 days instead of 1)

Oil Painting is different from acrylic. Oil takes very long to dry. When i went back to school today the paint on my canvas and palette is still wet!
2 of my students..
I let them practice on a dog illustration (by James one of my current project mate)
some of them would rather us mouse to click away because they felt that the tablet is too sensitive.


I'll be away in KL next week for yet another school exchange program. I can't wait to visit their design institution.
I'm not really keen in staying 1 night at a Kampong because I tend to develop rash and attract insects. But I guess the scenery there would make taking photos worthwhile!

SO GONNA BRING MY LOMO CAMERAS.
I also borrowed the school Semi pro digital camera =x

Here are some photos that I took recently with my beloved lomos.
This image of Eunos is taken by a Vivtar Film Camera which i borrowed from my classmate Kai.
It's a wide angle camera, I guess that explain the exaggerating perspective lol
And my fisheye 2. @ SPCA
@ Terence Place
Of my Pig bag & Terence. Slide films give amazing results after they are cross processed.
The rest of the pictures can be viewed in my facebook album.
I think i will upload into Picasa when I'm back from KL.

I've been busy.
As usual :)
Had a few projects to do, and things to plan.

Nothing much happened recently. I did a few voluntary work for SPCA, saw SM Goh when i volunteered for SPCA during the Marine Parade town day.
Met a idiot who promised his children that he will buy them a dog if they pass their examsz AND said 'then i'll send it to SPCA lor' when i ask him if his children become irresponsible and got bored of the dog one day.
-_-

I also helped out the Photography interest club booth at the Pasir ris Elias CC open house.
One of my photo was selected to be on display. weeee~ I just realise that I'm the only girl in this photo -.- well, most of the club members are uncles. (rich uncles? all holding DSLR)
They call me xiao mei.. =/
I had make up on because I had a performance later on. lol
Thats Wilson the guy who started the photography interest club, showing off how close his uber 2.4 lens can zoom.

Well.. I can't say that nothing interesting REALLY happened.
Because this might interest you.

Remember the last time this Joel guy passed me a letter through his friend? He did that again a few weeks back.
So I thought. Aiyah just be nice for once and give this poor boy my msn address. And be casual online friends or something.

But I regretted that now.

He and his friend approached me last Friday in school. (They actually waited for me to end lesson. how freaky is that?)
So after I took his email, I made it clear to him that I'm 21 years old (they are 18)

And it was pretty strange when Joel started to repeat 'I can tell you are 20++' and 'I see you I know you look 20++'
When I got abit irritated cause he keep emphasizing that I look old, I asked him since when he knew I look that age? He replied 'Since today' (which is after i said my age)

And his friend tried to cover up for him saying 'actually from are you look cute, you look young' But Joel just kept going on about how i look 20++

Then there was also the awkward silence. And his friend will do hand gestures and egg him to say something IN FRONT OF ME. -_-

Joel oso said something damn lame. He said 'You are that sort who always skip school right?'
When i ask what made him said that? He replied 'Because I don't see you in school often.'
And i said 'Thats because we are from a different course' -_-

How can he expect us to have the same timetable? And yes i notice he and his friend like to wait for me to end lesson alot. Even when my lesson ends at 6pm +


Adding him in MSN was a huge mistake.

He would say stuff like 'Exercise is good' 'What exercise do you do?' 'why you don't want to tell me? Why you don't trust me?'
-_-
And alot of 'What you doing now?'
Till i got piss and said 'Even my boyfriend don't ask me 'WHAT YOU DOING NOW' so often'

The 2nd day, I was at Terence place when he started to chat again,
He even tried to ask me out for lunch during one of these day to 'Get to know me better' wth?
Terence typed 'I'm now at my boyfriend house, very busy'
and he replied 'You tell me for?'
......

But what i really cannot take, and what really turn me off and decide that I don't even want to talk to him again, let alone be friends is when he claim that he is christian he can't lie and will go to hell if he lie. When i ask him what church is he from he can't answer me.
When I told him human lie. He cant claim that he wont/can't lie (its already a lie). But he kept going on about dying and going to hell.
When i ask him which verse in the bible that states specifically that if one lies he will go to hell?
He gave me irrelevant verse. and said 'very serious one you know'

When i told him that i despise people who use Gods name in vain.
He said 'You cursing me isit.'
w t f?

Then last night (2nd day) I had it, I told him we can't be friends and he said 'Msn friend can?'
I said no. (didnt he realise i already gave him that chance?)
Then he claim that He make mistake and say wrong things cause he dunno me well (dumb reason) And he actually asked for 'Mercy'
Sound like as if I'm the devil, torturing him -_-

So I told him that 'I already have a boyfriend and I don't wish to make anymore friends'
But he replied something that I dont really understand when i read it like 'since its your boyfriend meaning, I think you oso can't do anything'
(His english not very good, sometimes Its hard for me to understand too -.-)

But that reply made Terence sound like as if he is possessive and won't let me make other male friends. LOL!

Then just when I thought it was the end of all the drama today.
HE suddenly drop me a message.

jehovah i make a vow to you that i will be serious to you from today onward i dont want get destoryed at judgement day comes says:
since that day you want kNOW my relgion now i tell you i am one of jehovah withnesses i will not tell a lie for small tHING

CORRECTION! I never wanted to know his religion since he kept repeating that he is christian already. I only ask which church he is from.
I didnt know what a Jehovah Witness is till today. And I oso didn't know it was ban in Singapore.
ANYWAY WHY IS HE GOING ON ABOUT LIES AGAIN?

Why is he still trying to impress me? Its not something impressive at all.
I dont understand why he is so desperate to be friends with me even when I told him older than him and have a boyfriend?

Someone said maybe he thinks that he might have a chance if me and Terence break up. Was it Chris? I have short term memory.
Anyway he can dream on. My relationship with Terence is stronger than he think.

SPCA's Volunteers Appreciation Evening

Thats me, Ernest, Liana, Hansel and Thomas. 1st 3 are information officers. Not very sure about Hansel and Thomas. But I know they are in charge of the volunteers club.

Then last Sunday I volunteered as a Information Officer for SPCA at the Marine Parade Town Day.
SKC had a booth there too. They brought 2 border collies. This one will tilt it's head when you take to it. cute right? haha. Reminds me of Belle =/
The Black border collie who was forced to sit on a chair
Sales and information officers! No that lady in white is not part of the SPCA booth. Why is she behind the table anyway?
I dun rem whats the name of the girl in green. She and Liana were doing sales. While me and the new guy Nigel did information officers.
Nigel is a Eurasian that look VERY Chinese. I did'nt know he didn't understand Chinese till he suddenly turn to me and ask 'what did she say?' after a aunty spoke about her cat and walk off.
I guess he had years of experience, training himself to look like he understand then ask someone near him what that other party is saying. lol.
Information Officer side of the table.
Mr Goh was there too. He is suppose to visit each booth n ask questions or something. But when he came to out booth. He totally ignored us and had his eyes on that chihuahua the lady is holding.

How I wish i could open up peoples eyes to Stop buying dogs cause of a movie.
I remember back then I see alot of huskies at the SKC dog shows when the movie 8 & below and snow dogs were out.
And when i started to volunteer I see alot of Husky there too!
Husky are not meant for our climate! Alot of people think they can just get one and put it at home for show. Then they realise that they are high maintenance cause of their double coat and require LOTS of exercise and think they can't manage anymore. SO dump it lor.

Then last year there is Beverly Hills Chihuahua show.
and alot of people keep chihuahua now -_- I went to dogs day out at the park and SKC recently and you won't believe how many people have chihuahuas now.
So far I've seen some Chihuahuas in SPCA. one of them was given up cause it was too noisy.
They may look small but their screechy barks are damn loud.

Jack Russell also. Look so cute and smart in shows like The Mask and Dogs hotel. One of the cheapest breed to buy in pet shops too. But then later on people realise that its too active and they throw it away -_-

Expecting guinea pigs soon.
I'm sure that alot of people don't know that they are as boring as hamsters unlike the active smart ones in the upcoming movie G-Force.

Wake up Please.
And stop dressing up those chihuahuas they are not fashion accessories.

Recently.. I've been dreaming...
That I had a corgi that was always there for me. It followed me everywhere i go in my dream. And stares at me attentively when i talk to her at night.
Yah i know its cheesy. But won't it be nice? To have someone that is there watching over you and sleeping beside you at night? To have someone who listen and never say anything that would hurt you? That lived to love you?
It will be nice, won't it?
I'm turning 21 soon. I wonder if my parents would finally let me have my own dog. But I doubt it after years of lies and denial.
But then again no matter how much I dream and long for you. I know I can't have you. I don't want you to suffer with me.
This illustration depicts what happened recently.
Terence came over to my place a few times and tried to find out the source of my CPU woes and finally fixed it. And thats me drawing him behind as he screw different parts together.

I also learn something new from all that.
Vinyl rubber is used to clean rams! And it really worked!
So amazing right? Spare me the hassle of going down to convergent to get the ram changed.

But what i hate about the whole process was.
Because the Motherboard was replaced with a new one. My whole bloody system was screwed up and I got to reformat my com!
And I lost some work and all my music that was saved on my desktop.
:(
damn..

Here are some photos from the closing ceremony of Read Singapore 2009.
Picture credit: Rid (my classmate & animation team member)

Dr Eric (Course Director?) , Zaki (Classmate), Me, Robert Sherman (Author of No Looking Back), Natalie (My lecturer who taught character design and 2d animation)
me, Mdm Fahimah (class advisor), Ms Natalie (Lecturer), Mr Aaron (Section Head) and Zaki (classmate)


somehow.. what I'm striving for seems closer after that night.

My Com is finally up again! But one of them ram is still faulty zzz.
You won't believe how crazy i became when my computer was down for 3 weeks.
Terence actually made 2 trips to Bugis and 3 trips to my place in a single day! He stayed till 1am that night too -.-

Well my project deadline was last week and exams are around the corner so i was pretty stressed. But I manage to complete my work.. ONLY to be told by the teacher AFTER i submitted that there are mistakes and flaws. WTF.
why didn't he critic earlier? >_>

I smell a B or C for my motion graphic and my storyboarding and digital video production modules. sigh.
I hope I have time to edit it tomorrow :(

here are some random pictures
on my way home from school~ bloody long bus ride from Ang Mo Kio to Pasir Ris
Katong!
Tembling road. Road to Terence house from Katong. So many pretty houses! I wonder if I will live in one someday...


Last night, I attended the closing ceremony of Read Singapore 2009!
We finally screen the animation we had been working on for the past 4 months!
Based of the Novel 'No Looking Back' by Robert Sherman. The National Library Board invited the author to Singapore and we surprised him with the animation after a speech by me.

I was nervous okay. Speaking to a crowd of directors, ITE Section heads, my course manager and directors, and teachers and god knows who.
That I mispronounced some words -_-
Everybody gave me different reaction and expression. And while reading I kept thinking 'was i too fast?' 'Did i say something wrong?'
My speech was 3 pages long

But after they watched the animation some came to me and said that I did well. =/
are they just trying to make me feel better?

Anyway the author was stunned and said he was honored that his story was made into an animation.

I did the background of the animation. Some samples can be viewed here
http://muffinsaurs.blogspot.com/

I also met my course director for the first time! I only see his pictures on the school calendar so far. And the first thing he said to me was
'Are you Tiffany's cousin? You look like her! You got the same surname, and she mentioned before that she had a cousin studying DMD at Ang Mo Kio'
=.=

I didn't know I look so much like you Jie.. haha.. Natalie says the forehead to the eyes look alike. I told her 'must be from our father' HAHA

Anyway I'm just relived that 4 months of hardwork is finally over :)

How I felt and look like recently.
What goes on in my head recently
What I did when my computer was down.

Recent happenings.

Since my computer is still down. I don't have time to blog...
So... I've been doodling!!! =D



In school one day..
with a teacher...
I also encounter this guy who screamed at me from afar just to pass me this.
Written by his friend.
And yes i know who that 'friend' is.
I already said I have a boyfriend -_-


Last Sunday i watched Up in 3D with Terence and Apeth too. First time watching 3D movie!!!
And below is the illustration of what happened that same say.

Just in case you can't read my hand writing.

Me: 'Do I look better with black eyeshadow or without'
The Boyfriend: 'Har? You put on make up? I did not notice. I see you everyday.'

Hello.
I'm currently using my bro's computer to blog.
Man his keyboard and mouse is sticky and disgusting.

Today. I went to convertgent or however you spell it lah. To fix my motherboard but they are close. From Today till Monday. WTH? Whole company went for some retreat.
So we went over to Fuwell to check the graphic card. Its working fine, then to PC themes to check the motherboard. And yup motherboard confirm dead.
They are nice enuff to help us bring down when the manufacturer is open again.

So it seems like I will be living without a computer for another week. ARGH

At least I got WII.

Anyway I visited comic con at expo hall too.
Love it.

I may be going back again this Sunday :p

alright time to go wash my hands
disgusting.

Today
I went to Fredric 21st Birthday part at his place. Yes all the way to Jurong. Terence went with me so the train ride wasn't that bad :)

Will post the pictures next time.

Here are some pictures of Last Friday 'SPCA Dog walker's 10 anniversary dinner' at the American Club.
I met Ben another dog walker at Orchard before heading there.
The American club main entrance is not easy to find okay! We made a wrong turn and ended up at Tanglin Club without realising it -.-

yum yum!

Gorgeous pudding
I think this is salad? I didnt eat this cause it looks like rojak to me -_-
The dazed ham chef and his ham. Love the lighting, got the sexy feel to it ~
the sexy ham~ omg i love it <3
Ellen the lady who made it all happen..
10 years had passed since she started dog walking for SPCA. I really give it in to her and her commitments.. I wonder if i will be like that?
SPCA Executive officer Deidre Moss

I feel.. so.. anti social some times?
I see people mingle around. I oso want to mingle with them.

But I'm afraid.
I'm embarrass.
Because I want to avoid questions like 'What are you doing now? Studying? where you studying?'

What am i going to say? ITE?
I don't want to say ITE. It makes me feel uncomfortable. I don't wanna lie too! Lying makes me more uncomfortable.

I know I should not feel that way because I'm in ITE. Why so 'paiseh' right?

Sometimes I think, its because of how i was raised.
When I was young. Mummy always compare me to other children. Our cousins, to her friends kids, to our neighbors whom we seldom talk to.

Back then I was young, I don't really care. I have friends, my classmates are all from the same school and stream as me, nobody give a damn or would ask.
Now it's different, I go out and meet people and they ask me. And I keep picturing what mummy said all the time. Argh.

She used to say 'why other people children can study my children so stupid dunno how to study?'
I hate it when she compares.
She also tell us how my aunts and people look down on me cause I can't study.
How she felt so embarrass whenever they ask.

She told me that back then when we lived in Jurong, our neighbor came into our house to play and chat. When their mother ask what stream am I in, she replied and instantly the neighbor called her kids to go home.
wtf?

And her sister kids too. Were told not to mingle so much with me cause I can't study. They were afraid that if he mingle too much with me, he oso can't study.

Then there were times back then when my brother education was fine. She would try and scare him, tell him not to be like me.
And say un-true stuffs like 'Your sister regret not studying hard' or 'don't be like your sister'

I feel so sad..
All these demoralizing things she said.. some how made me feel so demoralize whenever someone ask me about my education.
Thats why I can't wait to get into poly.

I feel so shitty..
Long ago she told me that 'Its in the genes' because she didnt study much and now her kids are like that too.
I don't want to have kids in the future. If what she say is true. And if my kids turn out like me, I want to spare myself from what I'm feeling right now.

Then again it doenst make sense because her bro who has the same education lvl as her, has a brainy primary school daughter who is top in her class now. And they were all so proud of it.
She was proud of it too. Kept talking about it whenever those pri sch results are out.

I don't wanna feel like that.
I don't want to be like her.

I dread going to my grandmother house last time especially after my exams.
Mum's elder sister and her husband (who comes back few times a year) would usually come back the week when results are out. And whenever they see me, first thing they would ask is 'Hows your exam results'
Say you didn't do as well as her kids. And expect alot of strange advises and all the 'how come you never study?' 'why you never study is it?'
I HATE IT.
If i got the chance I would stay over at Tiff house!

Okay u are prolly wondering 'WTH is Steph talking about' up till now.
It's okay if you don't understand. You don't need to. I'm just going insane.

She is probably laughing if she is reading this and I can hear her say 'See, never study. now you regret right?'


Don't get me wrong. I'm not embarrassed because I'm in ITE.
I just can't help but feel that people around me look down on me.
And I hate that feeling. I already grew up with mum telling me constantly how our neighbor, our relatives, her friends all look down on me.

Make it simple. My childhood is mum telling me how people look down on me and my education.
And its freaking affecting my present life. Because now I can't help but feel that everyone is still judging me by my education/school.

You can say its my sub consciousness. Who knows?
I got people who never contact me any more or talk to me much after they learn of my school.

I hate my life.

But I love snow ice.

And I love nature. Look at the flower not the guy behind
If only I look like that inside.
whythefugamicryingoverthis.

I will soar!
I got so many random pictures...
Slide Films which I ordered from Khloee's online store Multiple X Choice.
Time to snap pictures with my fisheye 2!
The giant yellow ducky Terence got me is not living in his bedroom! Quack~

Hosshima, Mdm Fahimah and me.
These pictures were taken from her Mac book pro.
Her mac cost 2.5k. WTH?
Btw.. Hosshima is actually graduated from ITE last year. But she's still younger than me =x
She came back to school yesterday to disturb me =x
LOL jk.
She actually came back to look for me and chit chat, we also had lunch with Mdm Fahimah too.

Yesterday, Apeth came to my school. He said he wanna pass me bubblegum which he helped me get from Malaysia a few weeks back.
But he surprised me with a Wii as well. Told me it's a early birthday present ( think before he spend all the money he saved)
But he really shouldn't. Its so expensive =/

Anyway it's not mod, i need to pay for the mod and the warranty myself. I dunno why must buy the warranty la -.- I only know its made in Korea.

And currently i only got 1 game. Rayman Raving rabbids 1.
Planning to mod it this sat.
I don't have time to play now. I'm so stress about my video production on SPCA. Just today my teacher think that its hard to make out what my first scene is saying.
I was only going according to what the other teacher want and advises.
In the end everyone one got different views when it comes to creativity.

I don't like videos. I can't wait to get into poly and do what i like.
ITE is just a stepping stone.

Yesterday my classmate sat down beside me and ask me why i work so hard and look so stress and serious in my work.
Because I really want to go into poly? I want to have fun too, but if i do so like in the past, i would not concentrate in class and become lost.
I think i will only be more relaxed and have fun in poly.

oh well. I think I'm going to bed now, I've been having a bad headache since I was in school.

My birthday is near. And I dunno what I want to do?
I made plans to book a 'minimum' 3 day 2 night chalet. But cancelled it last week cause I dunno what to do for one day, and it's hard to find a NTUC union member to book for me.

One of my uncle is a member. But he piss me off.
I was not the one who seek his help. I asked another aunt who then turned to him. I wont turn to him.
I can't depend on him at all okay. I wrote down the month, date, the name of the chalet 3 weeks ago.
Last Sunday i return and he said he have not booked. Okay I was fine with that.

Then he asked 'December right?'
Me: -.- 'No its November. You want me to write down for you again?'
Uncle: 'No need..... 18 of November right?'
Me: 'No! It's 6,7,8 of Nov. You sure you don't want me to write down for you again?'
Uncle: 'No need.'

Then i got the feeling that he don't know which chalet.
And i was right.
By that time my mother came into the conversation and started nagging and told me to write down for my uncle. I constantly repeated 'I WROTE BEFORE AND NOW HE DOES NOT WHAT ME TO WRITE?'

I told my uncle
'I want the Pasir Ris Costa Sands Chalet. NOT the Downtown East chalet.'

Uncle: 'oh why you don't want the downtown east chalet?'
Me: 'Because they might give you a lvl 2 room and the pit is somewhere else'

Uncle: 'But downtown east nearer'
Me: 'I want the pit to be right outside the room like in pasir ris coast sands! I just want the Pasir ris costa sands please??????'

Uncle: 'Why you don't want downtown east?'

W T F
YOUR 21ST BIRTHDAY OR MINE?!?!

Me: 'Forget it, I ask someone else to book for me. Good bye'

Thinking of that day just piss me off. Actually since they say the chalet must be a minimum of 3days 2 night. And i dunno what to do with 1 of the day, I thought of giving it to my mother side and let them enjoy.
BUT FORGET IT NOW.
THEY JUST PISS ME OFF.

Irritating uncles, irritating aunties whom mum predict that I'm going to be like in the future, and bloody irritating noisy screaming children who fights and treat each another like dogs.
Lynette to another cousin (I dun rem which) 'I'm the zoo keeper, you are the dog, you must lick my leg'

Just last Sunday, Lynette told me that her mother promised to buy her a dog when she is 16.
When i ask her mother, she said 'aiyah, bluff her one la.. still got 7 years. 7 years later i change my mind la.'

Then my mother said, 'Wah, you promise her, children can remember one. Hor Stephanie?'

SHE SAID IT SO PROUDLY OKAY.

Me: 'Yah you promised me since i was 10. still so proud about it?'

She laugh.

I know I won't get a dog either for my bithday. My mother promised to let me keep a dog for so many years. Last time It was
'Pass your PSLE get to Sec Sch i buy u a dog'
'Pass your N level'
'Pass your O level'
When I did all the above its
'Can't keep now, need to babysit Lynette and Valda, later your aunt don't like'

So when we moved and she don't take care of people kids anymore
its
'Now I working I don't have the will to keep a dog. You get married then get your own house then get la'

some promise eh?

I know I won't get a dog for my 21st birthday. It's fat hope wishing for one.
thus, If I cant keep them. Shoot them.

So, i guess I'm going to wish for a good camera? hehe
I'm aiming for a G10, too bad kai sold his G10 if not I can examine it a little longer :(

I called Canon today.
They let me purchase the G10 for $690 instead of $869 if I trade in daddy's old EOS 1000.
I think I'm going to save up! Plan to go to this design house to work for a month as an intern during my Sept holiday. Daddy's contact.
I hope the pay is at least 200? I know internship pay is pathetic la cause its for the experience.
Dad told them to pay me 'any amount' somemore. T-T

http://media.canon-asia.com/products/digitalcameras/powershotg10/G10brochure.pdf

Just now I sms him to tell him I can trade in his camera and do a privilege purchase.
But he took what I said as trying to ask him for money -_-